OH SHIT

Totally forgot yesterday was Friday.
Oh well, Saturday update.
I'm sure all both of my readers aren't getting tired of this bullshit.
I can't review this blog because it's like 95% pictures and the entirety of my comments can be summarized in a single sentence: "WHAT THE FUCK?" but I feel I have to let everyone know about this.
I really wish there were more words to this blog because it really is the perfect storm of blogging in 2012.
Transgender My Little Pony fan.
Why not?
Click that and look at it for a bit. I'm not going anywhere.
Anyway let's do this.

I've gotten the impression from reading the stories of other English teachers in Japan that their work environment is not the best, that they have issues with their bosses and whatnot.

Yeah I've read their whining and it can pretty much be summarized with "wow Japan really isn't like America" in which case you really need to stop being such a crybaby.

So I'm thankful that I've found myself in a good position in Japan and have a pretty kick ass job, overall. 

SOON.

For example: next week?  for 5 days, I'm going to be making Halloween crafts with the kids.  The kindergarten kids are making cute little paper pumpkin pictures, young elementary school kids are making a little stringed paper decoration thingie, and my older elementary school kids are making a paper plate spider.  It's all really fucking cute, negl.  I've done the kindergarten kids craft before, with very cute results.

I get, on average, a 2 hour paid lunch everyday and you don't hear me posting about it.
Well, except just now but that's not the point I was making an example.

Been busy at work - it's been test time so that's always a little bit of weird extra work I gotta get done.  Every year, during the winter parents' week, my students put on a play.  *sigh*  yep, a play.  It's simultaneously stressful and amusing as hell.  First grade kids order food a hamburger shop; second grade kids practice buying a train ticket; third grade kids go to a restaurant, and fourth grade kids go to a department store.  Kindergarten kids either do a fruit market role play or a post office role play. 

Yeah well I might be getting a long term substitute position where I get to help people make a Powerpoint for 7 hours a day.
THEY PAY PEOPLE TO DO THIS.
THIS IS AN OCCUPATION YOU CAN HAVE AND YOU NEED TO BE TRAINED FOR IT.

As far as the secretary drama goes, I think my boss is starting to catch on that the semi-bullying secretary has a tendency to be a bit useless, and recognizes what the other secretary is feeling.  I'm not involved directly so I just see the outskirts of all this, and I'm so freakin' thankful for that.  I have enough stuff to deal with.

The boy and I had a big explosion-y fight a couple weeks ago, and got all our feelings out.  It was super dramatic, but it was stress relieving for both of us.  We've been a lot better since then.

>Japanese guy
>in Japan
>dating white woman
Holy shit bro what the fuck are you doing?
When I said "go to Asia and date women that aren't cunts" I didn't mean "stay exactly where you are and date a cunt".
You got it exactly backwards bro what the fuck are you doing?
Get the fuck out of my office you're all fucking fired.

My Japanese boyfriend, who knows English pretty well, has the most annoying habit.

Bro.
Bro.
Plz.
Plz go.

He randomly decides I don't know certain Japanese words, and will use the English word, when we are speaking in Japanese.

I used to do that in Japanese class.
WELP HERE'S AN ENGLISH WORD HOPE YOU KNOW IT.
It'd work a solid 7/10 times.

It is SO.  GOD DAMN.  ANNOYING.

For one, it's so arbitrary.  We'll be having a conversation just fine, and then he'll randomly decide to say "co-worker" instead of 同僚...even though I've given no indication EVER that I DON'T know that word in Japanese.

For two, good god it's insulting to my intelligence.

Dude.

We went to an orthopedic clinic today to get some x-rays done on my back (cause it's been acting up real bad lately), and because I was cranky and he was doing that in public (which is humiliating), I had a bit of a shout at him.

What was the word that set me off on this particular occasion?

"kindergarten."

 I know I say this a lot but I honestly have to stop here and ask "who cares?"
I don't mean that rhetorically like I usually do. I don't mean "haha shut up cunt no one cares" I'm legitimately asking here.
Do you even care about this?
I can't imagine even you care about this, woman.

You know, that place I visit twice a week to teach...a place I've visited twice a week for a good two and a half years?  That place I talk to him about all the time?

Yeah, logic would dictate that I KNOW HOW TO SAY 'KINDERGARTEN' IN JAPANESE.  COME. ON.  Seriously, way to make me feel like a dumbass, dude.

Isn't it 幼稚園?
I had to look up the writing because I didn't know it but I knew how to say it--
You know that's a common problem in Japanese.

I dunno.  Maybe it's a common sense approach to me because I'm an English teacher and this is the kind of situation I have to deal with on a daily basis.  I never want to insult the intelligence of my students, because that shits on their confidence and then they might start losing interest in English and quit.  And you know, a good chunk of my job requirement is "don't be so sucky that students hate you and don't want to come."  Well, speaking to them in such a condescending way is one such way to make them hate you and stop coming.  You gotta be diplomatic and speak to them like, you know, adults.  You have to treat them with some respect, and allow them some dignity.

That's a pretty simplified view of it but whatever.
Are you sure you're a qualified English teacher?

I love my boyfriend dearly, and he, generally, is very understanding and smart.  But this is not one of those times when he is any of these things.  Hopefully my little shout at him (and my more gentler version of it I will give to him either tonight or tomorrow sometime) will make him stop doing this crap.

You do realize this is the same society that'll call you fat and ugly to your face if you are?
If your feelings are easily hurt about shit like this you probably should have picked a different country to live in.
Also don't go to Korea because they're even worse about that.
Calling their society "polite" as Westerns often do isn't quite how to describe it. Their manners just differ from our own.
And it doesn't extend as far as pussy sensitivity.
So in conclusion I suggest getting the fuck over it.

I was never good with children.

I never grew up around them, and I never knew what to do as I got older when I was around them.
Dealing with animals came more naturally, but I just didn't know what to do with a baby.

So naturally, I was a bit petrified when I started working with children at my job.

SO NATURALLY I PICKED A CAREER CENTERED AROUND CHILDREN.

I surprised myself with how soon I got used to them, and learned how to talk with them and interact with them.
Kids aren't so confusing to me anymore.

Kids aren't confusing at all ever.
They just don't know what the fuck. I watched one walk into a coat rack recently.
They don't know if they're coming or going.
 Then they challenged me to a game of Call of Duty.
KID I JUST WATCHED YOU WALK INTO A COAT RACK
I'VE BEEN PLAYING FPSs LITERALLY 3X LONGER THAN YOU'VE BEEN ALIVE.
Also there's a 0% chance I'm giving you my PSN name but that's for legal reasons you wouldn't understand as a 3rd grader.
Just sit down and be thankful you're not on the other end of my LZ deployment.
... He might win, actually. Those 7 year olds are brutal.

Because of that awkwardness, and the anxiety I always experienced imagining the state of being pregnant, for a good long while I figured I would never have kids.  The thought of something growing inside of me is one of my worst fears, tbh.  I'm more afraid of parasites than I am sharks or snakes or whatever.  A baby was just an extention of that.

That's a healthy view of children. I can really see why you picked the occupation you did.

I always gave the caveat that that was how I felt at the time, and who knows how things would change in the future.  People are all too eager to call out women and go 'OH, YOU DON'T WANT KIDS NOW, BUT SOONER OR LATER YOU WILL BECAUSE MATERNAL INSTICTS, YOUR MATERNAL DUTY AWAITS YOU!!~~" and I absolutely hated that, and dreaded the "I TOLD YOU SO"'s that would come about from those who hold such mysogynistic views of women.

Oh I just noticed the hilarious punchline at the end of this entry.
This is going to be good.

I feel like a variety of circumstances have come into place at this time in my life that I now I want a kid.

Seeing the kids at work grow up.  Watching all my friends have kids and seeing them grow up.  Finding someone I love who is damn near an exstension of myself, who gets me and I get him and who I share the same life goals with.  Slowly growing more and more comfortable with myself, my abilities, and my body.  Watching the world continue to turn, and seeing such shitty people populate it.

It makes me want to squeeze out one of my own.

TAG: DEEP THOUGHTS.
Wow. Not to toot your own horn, or anything.
Jesus Christ.
Aaaaand that's the end of this fucking blog.
Can you believe that shit?