Girl blogger this time. I'm pretty sure. Almost positive.
Ok so it might be a guy.
What are you studying or did you study in school? Is it related to what you want to do for your career?
English education and probably not.
Using it for the cred, or that's the idea, anyway--
I majored in Media & Theatre Arts, aka movies.
Whew, I made a dumb mistake majoring in education but at least I didn't do something that stupid.
I originally opted for the major for two reasons: a.) scriptwriting is one of my few talents, and b.) I have this... I don't know if it's a type of synesthesia or what, but I seriously can't hear music without images and movement springing unbidden to my mind, little "movies" if you will, and I figured that filmmaking could help me translate those images to a more tangible medium.
You're making that shit up, knock it off. Synesthesia is a serious neurological condition where sensory signals literally get interpreted by the wrong part of the brain. Imagining your music being a backdrop to a movie is something most people do anyway.
In fact, neurologist Richard Cytowic made a handy list to tell if you have this rare condition, one of criteria is:
"Synesthetic percepts are consistent and generic (i.e., simple rather than pictorial)."
SIMPLE RATHER THAN PICTORIAL.
About two years into my major I realized it really wasn't what I wanted to do for a career (largely because it requires things like "working with other people" and "moving to LA" and other things I'm not fond of) but I finished out the major anyway because I couldn't think of anything else to do.
You probably sucked at it anyway.
A few weeks back I dropped a couple of hints about a potentially major change happening; well, it seems to be fairly set in stone so I'll detail it here. It... really isn't as exciting as I probably made it sound. xD
xD xD MY LIFE IS BORING SO I'LL MAKE SURE TO WRITE FIFTEEN PARAGRAPHS OF NOTHING--
I worked on adding a new scene to my book yesterday... I didn't finish, because I wasn't particularly happy with how it was turning out (as I'm fond of saying: I ALWAYS hate my first drafts, no matter WHAT), but I got an okay start. Here's what I'm adding:
Basically I'm adding a scene toward the beginning of the book where Windshifter is wandering around Faradan City upon just arriving and winds up at a traveling carnival. There are a lot of interesting mechanical and Amparium-powered devices here, like rides, fortune tellers, mechanical arcade games and the like. Anyways,
ANYWAYS
ANYWAYS GUYS
ASPIRING AUTHOR
ANYWAYS
I don't understand all these people who hate their first drafts. You know what that says to me? Shit idea. Also this is the fifth blog in recent memory I've read where they say "I don't reread my drafts because I'm afraid they'll suck."
GEE. Better finish it blind and just living in ignorance then~
I reread my last few pages as a matter of course and I always think "YES THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I WANT TO READ ALWAYS" and if I don't feel that way time to find a new idea.
Windshifter rigs one of these up so a little kid can win it, which impresses Profferlink, who is there on business and has a weak spot for little kids.
For being such a short scene, I think this will go a long way to improving the overall story, as it will include such improvements as:
- Showing (rather than telling) Amparium's ubiquitousness in society
Showing instead of telling.
Something all bloggers have a problem with.
Also let's take random stabs at what this story is about. I'm guessing crotchity Dr. House-type character with magical (possibly mechanical) powers who goes around a steampunk setting solving crime.
That is the stock of 99% of all bloggers' books.
In the history of writing has there ever been a published steampunk story?
I guess that Neil Gaiman had one but he's basically fanfiction that hit it big--
Adding a bunch of flavor to the setting in general (that's one of the things the publisher advised I do in that one rejection letter)
I'd like to mention she's trying to get e-published. Vanity presses are telling you to go screw.
I spent some of my long weekend working on a cover for "Windshifter" ("The end of the month" is still my goal), but I was unhappy with the results, so I scrapped it. The truth is, I'm just not a graphic designer, and my art skills are niche at best.
I had no idea authors had to do their own covers.
F. Scott Fitzgerald is a pretty good artist too, then--
Oh that's right. If you're not a hack people will be lining up to do your cover for you.
Sorry, got confused for a second there.
My self-esteem has really hit an all time low over the last couple of weeks/months. I've never felt so terribly insecure about myself and others' thoughts on me before.
But you have WINDWAKER under your belt.
Windshifter, whatever.
Windwaker was a Zelda game.
A psychologist would, I'm sure, have a field day with me. He'd probably point out that I was ripped from a job I was an expert in and dumped into one where I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing, resulting in me essentially being paid to feel useless 30 hours a week for months on end.
Feeling useless for 30 hours a week?
Working for the federal government?
HEY-OH
And he'd probably also point out the double whammy of a.) my parents breaking up/my family "factionalizing", and b.) my relationship of six years ending, both of which were tossed at me at nearly the same time, meaning that I've watched every important familial or near-familial relationship in my life prove itself as tenuous and temporary. "No wonder you feel like you can't trust anyone, including yourself!" the shrink would say.
And you know, he'd probably be right.
I know what I'd say: "ever consider that you think about yourself too much?"
I'm really getting hit hard with the self-doubt bat again. See, my goal is to have "Windshifter" e-published by the end of the month, right? Right. Except that I want to give it one last read through before I truly call it "final", and I can't bring myself to read it, because I know it's going to suck.
I reread a short story I wrote recently with the intention that I was going to read it like I read most things (I.E. "this is shit before I even start") and by page two I was convinced I was awesome.
No one is more down on shit than me so clearly I'm just good at this shit and you might suck a little.
For example! Today I was going to start reading it, so I picked up my e-reader and... promptly started reading something else, because I couldn't bring myself to drudge through my own drivel.
I was amazed at my own level of vocabulary and yet it still read easily. HOW ON EARTH DO I DO IT?
I feel like I need some encouragement, but then I also feel like said encouragement would be useless, because I have some sort of railroad switch in my brain that routes all complements I receive into the "Well, they're just saying that to be nice" category.
Awful, no?
I just need to finish an anthology and then PREPARE YOUR BUTTS.
Just once I want a browser that doesn't go all Pac-Man on my RAM, but until then~
>Pac-Man on your RAM
What kind of 1999 computer are you using?
Man. Let's see how much Firefox is eating currently (too much I'm sure but I don't give a shit)--
almost 300MB.
But I have 6GB so it's okay.
I'm about 99.9% sure that e-publishing is going to be what I do, instead of traditional publishing. I went from being about 50% sure to about 75% sure to about 90% sure and then back down to 75% sure, but now I'm... well, yeah. I'm pretty convinced. The more I look into it, the more I think it's worth what risks there may be. It's not as glorious and romantic as traditional publishing, no, but I think for me and the way I tend to operate... it's the right thing to do. I really do think so.
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"Windshifter" moral: The future may look kind of scary, but we should be optimistic about it because it's actually going to be awesome. Also, technology is pretty great because it was made by humans anthropomorphic animals, who are pretty great.
OHHHHHH BOY IT'S FURRY.
Well anyway I think I'm done with this nonsense.
Good luck selling your gay furry porn online.
Loser.
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