It's one of those days

It's one of those days on Livejournal where the only people updating only do so once every two years and have only done so four times total. Most of the entries revolve around "I resolve to post more." It never seems to happen.
Wouldn't you just start a new journal as part of some sort of "fresh start" plan? No, I guess you can't let those four golden sentences pass you by. Four sentences every eight years-- an entire book is only 10,000 years in the future.
I finally found a blog of some substance but the substance was so incredibly boring I found myself reading it without really retaining anything, sort of like school.
Holy fuck I cannot believe how dull you people are today. Is it a full moon or something?
No, it's 39% and waning. Jeeeesus Christ this was like extracting teeth, and I'm pretty much settling.

fidning it hard not to choke on the optimism that's being shoved down my throat.
although it has been getting increasingly easier to keep my head above water, if you know what i mean.

... No, I can't say that I do.
Hey, writing this shit is kind of like doing the "capture a Lagiacrus" quest without Cha-Cha, if you know what I mean. NO ONE KNOWS WHAT THE FUCK YOU MEAN EXPLAIN YOURSELF.

came across so many childhood photos of myself. it's interesting for me to try to see my soul inside that little body.

What, are you a demon or something? You don't see like mere mortals do, instead you see the mortal corruption they leak so people like Grey Knights and Exorcists are totally invisible to you?

my life is rather boring, but it's not half as lonely as it might seem from the outside looking in.

Is it boring or lonely? Is this implying you're not boring if you're not lonely?

keep your eyes locked with the pavement, you're in no position to be pointing fingers.
but niether am i. and yet here i am again.

inhale the sin, exhale the regret.

1. what did we used to have in common before i found myself?
was conversation always this strained? or did we just never speak?

I imagine a conversation with you is more of a struggle to understand what the fuck is happening than anything in particular.I always love it when people say that. I NEED TO FIND MYSELF HURRR. I hope a person says that to me one day so I can just point at them and say "FOUND YOU YOU'RE RIGHT THERE."

2. i feel like i used to just be a walking mixture of everyone elses' emotions.

Christ this is almost a religious experience, isn't it?
This is where you find God and become yourself by adopting the doctrine millions upon millions of people before you have-- errr, how are you unique, again?
Hey, hey, if we're all God's children, what's so special about Jesus?

slipped into a dream for an entire week, and woke up to find that things had changed since i had given in to temptation.

Holy shit has anyone played Morrowind? That's exactly what this is. She's an Ascended Sleeper.
It explains everything: the not making much sense, the apparent worship of dark powers, the sleeping for weeks on end-- well there's only one cure for being a 6th House Cultist.

i'm just trying to remain as simple as possible,
are you?

You have never had a simple day in your life, don't even kid.

it's clear to see that when we said we'd find ourselves, you headed in the wrong direction.

That's a bit presumptuous, isn't it? Oh we need to figure out who we are but you're clearly wrong about yourself. I somehow know you better than you know you.
Bitch at least I make sense from word to word.

beginning to see the world through brand new eyes.woke up this morning and just understood. it's hard to explain.

Holy fuck that's almost word for word a level up message in Morrowind. This is a journal for a Morrowind character.

i am a master painter when it comes with words.

i could cradle you with sweet nothings, give me just a moment and i'll tell you all the lies you've been dying to hear. i could... but i won't.

I think it's time to leave a comment.
Dear Danika,

What the fuck is wrong with you? Why have I been reading this for a half hour and cannot for the life of me figure out what you're on about? Are you like this in real life?

Yours,

Tim.
And she's disabled anonymous comments. Well, fortunately--
There, all posted. Hopefully this'll get some answers.
Good thing I got this Livejournal account.
See I'm not just funny jokes. I'm getting to the bottom of this.

i remember the days when there was no caution. when we took leaps of faith without a second thought.

"No Fear! No Pity! NO REMORSE!"

if there's a rehab for adrenaline junkies i think i may need to aquire a scholarship.

Scholarship for rehab. Pretty sure that's not how rehab works. Oh, forget it. We could literally be here forever trying to figure this out. I'll just have to wait for my comment to pull through. I'll update everyone on this important mission Friday.

Good news, everyone

I think I might have fixed Windower and APradar for FFXI. I think it might have been the UAC on Windows 7 being mighty anal, so I turned it off. I know most people have it off anyway because it's an annoying cunt but whatever, I didn't.
Also got the new version of APradar. It's pretty fucking nice.
Not that I use these things at all when I play, because that would be against the rules and unethical to the extreme. I just install them as a technological challenge. Whew, that was a close one.
So here we have something-or-other, I don't really know~

YOU GUYS HOW AM I SO IN LOVE WITH NICK JONAS? Actually, more like, how am I him on the inside so much??? WHO I AM, possible one of the most relevant songs to my life right now. I know a lot of people were like "it's okay" but like, you don't get it, I FUCKING LOVE IT and I kinda wanna cry when I hear it cause that's the kind of insane person I am.

Whoa, okay.

AND JOE AND KEVIN WERE THERE TO SUPPORT HIM (and poor Joe, panning to him after the Taylor Swift nom, I was like, poor baby boy). Also, lol WHOIAM was a trending topic on Twitter *warm and fuzzy feelings*.

Okay. I get to be so above this shit because you know what I'm listening to --right now--?Motherfucker.

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh, ShinPoT, ILU. So, Yuuta and Shishido need to be BFFs right?

What the fuck am I reading?

Also, lol when I saw Hiyoshi I was pleased. The drunk coach confuses me, but that's okay. I don't know I feel about him. SANADA, NEVER CHANGE. Never back down. Haha. Was it just me or was Ryoma's face drawn kinda weird in that one panel with him being all snooty? Also, Ryoma, never good at doubles (only with Momo), so cute.

Uh-huh.
Now there's some pictures of her. Pretty much as expected. Greasy hair, heavy set, etc.

BUT LIKE, MERLIN, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. And I'm not gonna lie, I half expected Merlin to be all sad b/c like, idk he isn't Arthur's ~true love~. OMG MERLIN IS SO IN LOVE WITH ARTHUR, really I can't unsee/unthink it. It's totally canon. It's totally what the writers are doing. It's totally Colin making Merlin all gay for Arthur.

So remember when King Arthur was about knightly shit and romancing ladies and court intrigue?
I kind if miss that, actually. Just like how I miss Gundam being about giant robots instead of YET ANOTHER ANIMU TEEN DRAMA.

I use 'gay' and 'fag' all the time, jfc. It's like perfectly fine. I hate when gays get so offended. Okay I really hate it when ANYONE gets offended over shit like this. IDK I'm so laid back, it's like, how can this shit really affect you?

I learned in class that's a coping mechanism for RACISM AND INTOLERANCE. "I didn't really mean it so it's okay~" you're a horrible person.
Meanwhile in me world I don't actually give a shit but it seems like you might kind of feel bad about it so if I pick at it you'll get butthurt. :3
So I read a post so incredibly douchey I literally got dizzy. I think I might have a bit of a cold but whatever, it's totally this post.

UM. UNDEAD NAZIS WHO WEAR LEATHER AND WIELD BLADES? PLEASE REPORT TO MY PANTS. Cause srsly, Kroenen, you sexy bamf.

So guise, I GOT SIMS 3 right? OMG, I can make sexy blue people! FUCK I JUST WANNA MAKE A MILLION SEXY BLUE PEOPLE. !!!!! I love that you can change their hair for each outfit, love love love it.

Heh, girls playing video games. I know I might have made comments about wanting gloves in FFXI "because they match" but that's different because-- uhh--

Also, for the first time I'm like making a straight couple! I AM CONFUSED TOO.

First and only time I played Sims was the first one and I made myself. I was a jewel thief and had four girlfriends. Sort of like real life~

ALSO, NO HOT TUB?!?!?!? Or did I just not see it? aklsdjf;ksdl;kjf The skills are different, the only thing that is weird is you have to like... "find" the skills first. Also, to get more social interactions, you have to level up your charisma. WUT.

Wow, leveling charisma makes you more sociable? This game sounds completely bonkers!

Anyways, ZOMG the Inside the Obama White House special? SO. MANY. FANGIRLING. MOMENTS. I was like giggling and shrieking every five seconds. Raaaaahhhhhm!

>fangirl
>Obama
:|

Also, like 5 million people called the house today! SRSLY. WTF PPL.

uuuuuuuuuh.

WARNING: THIS POST IS MOSTLY RAMBLES. SORRY. And some cussing. Rahm approved! ;D

So I think I'm going to end this shit here and play FFXI with windower and APradar open (even though I'll just be tooling around town. Who gives a shit? Bozz can't hide from me now, that hamslapping pussy) but before I do let me give a blanket reaction to this blog:

Only a couple more hours

ONLY 7.5 HOURS UNTIL ASSASSIN'S CREED II COMES OUT, NOT THAT I'M COUNTING DOWN OR ANYTHING.
Oh right, some shit no one cares about.
Besides my largest complaint of this not being Assassin's Creed II, it also has the intense drawback of being really pretentious. I mean just look at the title of the first post:

"Asshat Academics Are Academic Asshats, or Biting the Hand That Bites Me"

Really man?
I mean it's your fucking blog so you can do whatever, but from over here in coolsville it seems like you're trying to create weapons-grade douchebaggery.
I'm not kidding either, son. If you take this shit to California they'll arrest you. (I picked California arbitrarily and for the possibly false assumption that they had strict gun control laws. I really don't know a lot about laws or gun control in particular)

Rhetoric, o Rhetoric!
Were you but the
salvation
you promised me
you'd be!

"Score another notch
for masturbatory
academic claptrap."

A snigger from behind,

Hey, hey I won't have this racism-- oh, snigger. Ha, ha--

The last time I shat myself, I was twenty-seven. It happened in Berlin. I still haven't told (most of) you that story. I might. It's a good one.

While listening to you prattle on about how you shit yourself might be the idea of a good time to some poor deluded fool, even I find myself with better things to do. That's pretty fucking serious for someone who honestly finds time to count down the hours until a video game comes out.

I was talking about comic books on a comic book message forum the other day. Someone was asking why the majority of people askance at comic books.

Because comic book fans use "askance" outside of trying to sound faux-Victorian?

Someone else countered by saying he was happy to be in a semi-exclusive club of comic lovers, and then asked why it mattered so much to some readers of comics that overall readership expand. I contributed the following (and shifted the discussion, naturally, to academia):

Yeah I've noticed a lot of pretentious bores have the near superhuman ability to make anything seem like school. Recently (as in a couple of hours to go) I was almost seriously analyzing Dirty Harry movies. If your analysis is anything outside of "that was fucking awesome" then you're a cunt.
OH THIS MOVIE PERPETRATES AN UNREALISTIC EXPECTATION OF MASCULINI-- shut up. Goddamn, way to ruin like eight of my favorite actors.

Despite its going too far, I managed to avoid saying academia was the tar pit into which liberals had been tricked by conservatism. Your pinko intellectual and rhetorical potentials can thrash about all they want in the tar pit, you know, but they'll never make their way out of the tar pit.

I thought we were talking about comics?
Who even gives a fuck, goddamn? Comics? Really, what, are you nine?

I was going, as usual, for "funny."

Oh is that what you were going for? I like how he qualifies it, too. "As usual" like yes, usually this is a laugh-fucking-riot.
Webster has this to say about funny:
"affording light mirth and laughter : amusing b : seeking or intended to amuse : facetious"
So I don't know, is this blog particularly amusing or, to use their words, "affording light mirth and laughter?" Personally I find being trapped in a burning elevator more facetious.

How is it that Cain and the Sons of Perdition is not a registered band's name?

Because no one can hear that name without gagging?
Seriously what kind of band is "Cain and the Sons of Perdition" outside of pretentious?

People often point to the Beatles' eponymous The Beatles (1968, otherwise known as the "White Album") as being either honestly, simply named or as being pretentiously named.

Well you would know about pretentious, so I'm willing to trust you on this one.
Now there's a particularly charming story about shooting horses and after setting up an air of academia so thick he could choke a librarian I'm amazed our boy would admit to such humble beginnings.

Some deaths you just don't get over.

I say "you" because I feel not getting over a death is an experience most of us can share.

Bold assumption based off your phrasing, bro. "most" of us share and yet you don't mind assuming I'm one of the most? Maybe I'm a sociopath and don't have that emotion. Thanks for being considerate, dick.
Here's a post entitled "Regarding Watchmen" which is one of the quickest ways to get me to not read something.

Wikipedia lies. (You already know this.) There is a lie it likes to tell about Gene Autry.

Oh well if you're lying about Gene Autry, greatest actor who has EVER LIVED (massive sarcasm) then you're a DICK.
Now there's a really long post about the two Voltrons (there was a vehicle one and a lion one, see) and how the American company combined the two series into one because whatever they didn't give a fuck. Hey if you can combine five lions and one robot and something like 30 cars into one robot, what do you get when you combine those two robots together?
There, that wasn't so hard, was it? It's called editing, man. Look into it. Somehow my two sentence summary of Voltron is five paragraphs in your blog. Of course you're actually on about Star Trek or something but frankly I can't really read your post without my eyes crossing.

Nobama? McCain't?

I thought you were wrought in a pithier smithy, America.

Nice douchey language, cunt. Also this is from the same nation that came up with "Sega does what Nintendon't!" so no, we aren't exactly known for our sharp wit when it comes to puns. See, NintenDO-- NintenDON'T? Get it? Wow, that's harsh. I see what you did there, but ouch.
Of course by 1997 we, collectively, learned what Sega did that Nintendo didn't-- make ten thousand peripherals for a dying system instead of sinking needed resources into the new, CD-based era and then promptly dying with the 90s-- BURN.
Cool werewolf hedgehog you have for a mascot, though. Playing that furry card loud and proud, I see.

Is there anyone else out there who thinks the Stone Roses' eponymous debut sounds like it could have wafted up out of the Paisley Underground? Yes? No?

I have no idea what the fuck you're talking about. Which is par for the course these last five months, honestly.
Now he links some shit from 4chan which bro-- they tend to cycle their content a little quick. Unless I happened to be checking your blog right then it's probably gone. Let me see-- OH HEY 404! WHAT DO YOU KNOW?
Well people, looks like it's about time to pack it up.

（ ﾟ Дﾟ）

I wish I had Darkinuyoukai's (Jesus fuck) address, because if I did I would definitely send her some nice Summer's Eve douching products.
While I'm on the note of Darkinuyoukai (Jesus fuck), let's go over that name. Dark is always an awesome opener for any name, up there with XxX or SSJ in my opinion. I call them "openers" because I'm not sure if "title" is appropriate here or not. Then we have inu, or as it's actually written, "犬" it means "dog". Then we have youkai which I do believe is some variety of demon. I don't really know what kind or what their deal is.
So here we are, Darkinuyoukai (Jesus fuck)'s journal.

Insomnia...I've experienced it for quite a while, yet I still can't shake it when I'm supposed to.

If you could "shake" insomnia it wouldn't really be insomnia, now would it?

I know I will sleep, but to get back into the schedule I once was in will take a lot of work.

>sleeping
>work
what

Anyways, I've been itching to go to the bookstore. I want to read another good series, and it'll most likely be horror again.

>good
>horror
>series
>book
pick two.

For one, I've changed my major. There is good reason why I did that too.

Whatever.

Talking more and more to advisiors, I decided that more stress on me wouldn't be the best thing....especially with my migraines.

"Advisiors", huh?

Changing my major to English gives me a lot to work around with.

Well if you want a low stress major welcome to it, holy fuck. It's a lot of douchebaggery and a lot of reading but challenging it is not.

I'll narrow it down a bit more when I'm back on campus. So now, I'm just retaking Anatomy and Japanese, and taking a general education class in poetry.

Ha, ha what a gay schedu-- OH FUCK IT'S LIKE MINE. I didn't willingly take a poetry class, or anything, though. Believe me it was a last resort.

*headdesk* hopefully that won't happen.

>*headdesk*
:|

Wednesday, I have a phone meeting with advising to help me along this semester. Oh joy. I just love to talk on the phone.

OH NO A PHONE CALL HOW STRESSFUL

I couldn't deal with the pain any longer, so i was admitted to the hospital in hopes of breaking the migraine I've had.

Pussy. What are they going to do? Besides waste resources trying to treat your stupid ass, that is.

It was quite annoying being in the hospital again, but it was necessary. After skirting around a possible LP, I had quite a few blood tests, an MRI, and an EKG doen to me during my two day stay there.

Ha, ha so you're sick enough to have all this shit done to you but not enough for a spinal tap. Hey, it'd get your mind off how much your head hurt, which believe me if you've had a real migraine would almost be welcome.

Most of the time, I was either sleeping or on my computer....which I was glad I could take into my private room. xD

lolxD last thing I want to do when I have a migraine: look at a bright computer monitor.

Oh yeah!! I forgot something. The same day that I was admitted to the hospital. (the 14th,) I had a phone interview for a job on campus. Ironically, I got the job...it really surprised me.

All right English major, what's ironic about this?
Everything that happens to you that you don't expect is irony, you know. Now if the person lining up the interview and said "there's no way you're getting this job," or if your last name was "Nojob" then that would be ironic.

Okay, get this. Apparently, my neurologist is still there in the hospital system. She didn't even leave at all! I'm pretty pissed at the lame brain receptionist that told me that she left the hospital system...

"God I don't want to talk to her again, can't you just tell her I left?"
"Sure thing, boss!"
That's how this played out at the hospital, I'm sure.

I'm about ready to just go and tell anyone that tells me that I need to stick with the pain medication I'm on. Its NOT working,

Brotip: nothing really helps migraines. The best thing I've found is caffeine and aspirin, and even that's like a 50/50 shot of working.

The only reason I haven't done that yet is because of how long it takes to schedule an appointment in such a big hospital. I'm better off going to a neuro off the main hospital area, yet still staying close enough to make a difference.

*headdesk* I'm going to stop worry about that...otherwise It'll make the migraine I have now worse. ^^;

I'm actually glad I'm reading this. Further proof that no matter how smart you are (brain doctor in this case) you cannot escape cunts.
Ha, ha poor doctor probably thought she was going to do something big and important with her medical degree but NOPE WACKY HERE NEEDS MORE PEELZ.

I have the WORST luck sometimes.

Now I'm going to do what I normally do and quote from some Roman archivist or philosopher (so listen up he's probably smarter than you):
"Every man is the architect of his own fortune", or so said Sallust.

Haha don't get me started on my depression, or wanting to stay away from crazy doctors like a few of my last ones were. One of my old doctors STILL wants me to go to a pain psychologist, and I'm still basically telling him flat out, "No way in hell would I ever end up there."

Good grief.

Its a wonder that I still maintain my anger over all of this...>>;

Yeah it is, actually. I thought for sure you wouldn't have GUTS enough to be angry.
That'll help your dumb headaches, I think. SHOW THEM THE FURY OF ARES BURNING IN YOUR CHEST.

I really don't know what to do now other than suck it up, and look for someone else that could help me.

Of course you don't know what to do. It's because you don't have the balls to stop being a faggot.

Migraines that are messing with my vision, mental health that's extremely questionable sometimes (I go from quiet, to hyper, back to pissy. Pretty fun range of emotions when I'm in so much pain.) spinal health that is totally shot, depression, and god...what else? I could try to list what else would be wrong, but that would take a while.

Holy fuck do you ever shut up? There's an exercise for you: shut up.

I'm getting into my neuro slowly, but at the moment, I'm completely off the Topamax.

Topiramate is a pussy drug. Tell them to give you the real shit.

I would start working on my fanfics again...but at the moment, I'm either too bored to, or I don't have any muse to start where I left off/being too lazy and want to wait to do them.

Here's your muse: kill yourself.

I shouldn't have to deal with this, yet I do daily.

It's Nemesis punishing you for being a douche.

Oh god, thanks to one of my friends, I'm hooked on para rping again.

what
So now I'm skipping all entries where she's bitching about her head or not being able to sleep (gee wonder if these things are connected) and I'm having trouble finding entries.
Here's one-- oh no, no it isn't. Ha, ha, just kidding.

I'm quite happy that I got a C in Anatomy, and even though I didn't get a B,

You do know there's a grade higher than B, right?
Yeah this looks like the end. Not seeing anything that isn't more bitching or just irrelevant drivel, so I best be off~

Let's Read Phonetically!

For today's blog I'm going to be reading everything phonetically because spelling errors are humorous that way.
Here we are, Maarkage (you're a cunt).

when people never heed my advice, like i dont know what im talking about
what you think the 18 years of hell ive been through , has shown me nothing??

You're 18. You don't know anything. Shut your trap.

seriously , you get hurt by "freinds" so u listen to me and tehn you go back with your back stabbing so called freinds
why cant you people see , that people never fucking change, only make choices upon those around them.
deep down inside

Yeah I have no clue why no one heeds your "wisdom". You can barely express yourself. They probably had no clue what you were on about.

god im so fucking pist...

all this wisdom and no one fucking listens

yall wounder why i hate myself

You probably hate yourself because you're a deplorable waste of space.

Yesterday upon the stairs,
I met a man who wasn't there,
He wasn't there again today,
I wish, I wish, he'd go away.

Deep.

bitches i got my first tat and it stands for independence

Shit son, did you get one of those tribal bands? Or maybe some Chinese characters that you think say "fire warrior" but in actuality say "faggot ass"?

Or maybe you went for the tride-and-true SKULL WITH SNAKES COMING OUT OF IT OH NO

that this date in the mark bowdidge history books , it the weirdest, i dont know what happend on this date years ago
but i know it hurt me in such a way i forced my self to forget

hahah hell its even raining



not really funy

:|
Mark. I'm watching you, Mark.

now reader, you may or may not know that we bothare stuborn ignorant fools, we'll fix you cause we aint "broken".

Stubborn perhaps, ignorant for certain. Also no, you won't be fixing me. I'd avoid both of you like the Plague of Justinian. The Plague of Justinian, incidentally, is perhaps more virulent and took a higher death toll than the legendary Black Death, so there's my opinion of you.

"This city is afraid of me. I have seen its true face. The streets are extended gutters and the gutters are full of blood and when the drains finally scab over, all the vermin will drown. The accumulated filth of all their sex and murder will foam up about their waists and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout "Save us!"... and I'll whisper "no."

QUICK! ONLY AN IDIOT WHO CAN'T SPELL OR STRING TOGETHER A COHERENT SENTENCE CAN SAVE US NOW! Yes, millennia of social engineering have failed us, and now we have to trust on this 18 year old kid to fix all of our problems!
Also cool juxtaposition between whores and politicians. You know, they do have a lot in common. I mean, most prostitutes are only working for a living (regardless of if you agree with the institution of prostitution, they're most probably not stealing tax payer dollars or the like) meanwhile politicians are all scum. Seems to me you're confusing social and political issues, but you are, after all, an idiot, so I doubt you see much of a difference between these things outside of "I disagree with them, and they are therefore bad."

sadly , this is how i veiw most of society

Very black and white "veiw" of society. Maybe when you grow up some you'll see most people aren't good or bad.

im sticking with political sceince as my major, ima need it to play their game

"Ima" not take any basic grammar classes either. Brotip: if you want to play "their game" you're going to need to understand the differences between 'ie' and 'ei' if you want any occupation above mixing concrete.

laughing my ass off for no reason just like i always do, but to day is gonna be never ending , i got a wedding and than sara is staying over for like ever wich equals untill wensday .

>than sara is staying over for like ever wich equals untill wensday
>than sara is staying over for like ever wich equals untill wensday
>than sara is staying over for like ever wich equals untill wensday
Hooooooooboy that's probably the worst spelling I've seen lately.

oh oh awsome new quote well quotes

" one mans fanasy is another mans nightmare"

Oh God, what?
I have an awesome quote for you: kill yourself.

why did live journal tell me when my own birhtday is

Probably wishing you a happy birthday. Not that you deserve it. Yeah that's right, stupid, every time people like "friends" and "family" said that they weren't actually reminding you of your birthday (although you are, after all, an idiot and would be prone to forgetting it).
Here's a comment from "Angst1991" (cool username, bro):

Because lj expects everyone to be dumb.

EVERY LIVEJOURNAL USER IS DUMB. PROVE ME WRONG.

me gots a date for 2moro really stoked
first actual date ina while...cause some people are afraid to leave home
but enough about that

Ohhhhhhh boy the idea of this man reproducing is a scary one. Also "me gots a date 2moro"? Seriously? What, are you a caveman who thawed and then somehow adapted to modern living? I'm not sure whether to be impressed now.

u dont know waht its like trust me
all these images in my mind
random laughter
keeping a smil on my face

you seriously thing u know me huh ?


try again

To quote Oblivion: "I don't know you and I don't want to know you!"

you think you know what lonlieness is...
well let me tell you
when you aint got a shoulder to lean on
a brother to mess around with
and no best freind to kick the shit with
what do you have...

Well maybe stop being such an emocunt and you'll have friends.

Tuesday, April 30, 2047 ..... thats the day im gonna day


acording to "the death clock"

I look forward to it. Only 39 years. When I awaken on Tuesday, April 30, 2047 I'll exclaim "I HAVE WAITED LONG FOR THIS DAY!"

am i that much different from the rest,
that some one would classifiy me as a totaly different kind of human
my only responce to that was agreeing....
look im flattered that you think im differnt and worth idiolizing
but now i got me self thinking....
what about me makes me so different

Ha, ha, ha, ha
ha, ha, ha
WHAT

i talked to jamie...
told her my birth day is in 13 days

"Yeah? And?"
Here's a post entitled "fighting is fun!" which leads me to believe our boy has never been in an actual fight before. Unless this is a metaphorical fight for something, in which case... No he's never been in a fight before.

one wrong move gramps and ill show you waht fear is

Ah, ha, ha, ha cool it, Vegeta.

giving 2 shits about enemys is not my style.

Yeah you're a regular space marine, kid.

dont say you fucking know me, then get shocked when i act imature
dont be all surprized when im a wise ass, and complain cause i insulted you

I'd love to see your insults. Actually, just kidding, I probably already have with shit like I'LL SHOW YOU WHAT FEAR IS!!!!!!!!!!! Goddamn what a putz.
Well, Mark or whatever, you're a cunt's cunt and I'm sure you'll be forgotten quickly. Not only by me, but by the world. Enjoy your life or whatever~

Let's break in my new graphics card!

Oh hi if you see this I succeeded in fixing my computer. So let's break this fucking massive brick that required me to mickey mouse my hard drive around with some EXTREME TEXT EDITING.
PINK AND ORANGE WERE NEVER SO BLINDING TOGETHER!
I love the first entry, by the way: "click here if you want to see what I'll tell Matt!" Wow you're such a tease! With a play up like that how can I not click that?
It's such a nothing post I'm left with nothing else to say about it.

He's overweight and I guess I just want someone smaller than me or same size.. I'm about to cry because I've known about his size for a long time and I coudn't possibly tell him that's the reason I don't want to be with him.. Am I being shallow world!!!???? Please tell me...

Yes and also a hypocrite because later you say you yourself are on a diet and are overweight, so good job you shallow, hypocritical cunt!

I'm just giving up a few things so that I can pay for rent like not getting my hair and nails done.. NOOOOOOOO.. Ok. i'm good. Just needed to get that out. Right now I have my hair in a cute donut bun.

Thanks for that. Cute bun, guys. Also you would have your hair styled like a delicious fatty food, wouldn't you?

I'm going to start posting pics up to make my journal more fun for me to read lol and my other LJ friend.. I'm a visual person I like to see pics.

Well you're certainly not a text person because you suck at typing coherent thoughts with proper punctuation.

I bought an ESHAKTI dress and I like it/hate it.. I only hate it because of my weight, but I am currently going to lose that weight.

GOING to lose weight, people. I love her conviction before she even drops a pound. I guess thinking about doing something feels as good as actually doing it.

My mom has me forever terrified to wear sleeveless anything. I'm afraid to wear tank-tops or sleveless dresses because I think my arms are fat. Granted, they're not the smallest thing on the block, but I feel like if other woman bigger than me can do it. Why can't I?

Because your mom is smart and knows how to hide her shame but you feel vindicated in doing something just because other people do it?
(brotip: just because other people do something does not make it right or a good idea).

Which is cute, shows he has a little loyalty to his little girl toy that he's trying to get with.

Jealous and shallow. I can't imagine why no one wants to date you, what with your winning personality and looks. You're the complete package!

Sooo, I stopped acting cute, and start getting down and dirty with him.. Joke for joke, wise ass for wise ass comments... Remember those racist comments he would sometimes make..yep, I made them back and I (what he would call) busted his balls!!!

Ha, ha you tried to run with a troll and got obliterated. Good work, come back when your kung fu is stronger.

I guess I was being mean, but you know I don't care. I know that I'm sweet and that I'm a darling.

>mean
>sweet
errr, what?

Anyways.. I answered like two more CL posts and one guy wrote me back saying "Are you cute? Any pics?" ummm why would I be contacting you if I thought I was dreadfully ugly.. Would I tell you that on the spot JERK!!! Anyway i wrote back NVM. I cannot stand ppl who go strictly off looks..not fair at all..

Seems fair to me. You're trying to hook up with people on the internet. They have literally nothing to go off of. I guess if you're going to be a shallow twat you might as well be an attractive shallow twat.

Next weekend, I'm supposed to be hanging out with my ex-boy..hmmnn I'm actually looking forward to it..not because of him..but just to get away...is that mean??

No?

but I'm sure I went over my points when I ate my ranch fully loaded taco salad from Taco Bell.

Ha, ha, no I'm guessing that's perfectly healthy. Probably 0 points.

Anywho,

That's pretty much it for today, OH YEEAH i"m going to start reading Twilight again.. can't wait to get absorbed back into the book.. Movie comes out in November and I want to go with some adoring fans..gotta find some first

Oh yeah and I"M DONE>..

OH YEAH ANOTHER GREAT ENTRY COMPLETED HIGH FIVE "SHANICE"!

So word to all alumnis from their colleges: DON'T GO USING UP YOUR FORMER SCHOOLS REHEARSAL HALLS, BECAUSE THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU ANYMORE..

Oh wow this is shocking. People who graduated no longer have access to services they're not paying for anymore!?!?

I'm sure my school will do that to because the minute one of our students graduate and come back they think they can just be all up in the plays and stuff.. I mean please.. Aren't you supposed to be on Broadway or something. Go make a life for yourself and stop trying to be in college productions lol

Here's what I always wonder about theater majors: if you were a good actor to start with wouldn't you already be in shows or something? What, if you're a good actor without a degree they just won't take you?

Ok, so I just posted something and it erased all.. so basically what I had originally said..

was that ::: aroaogfsoghsohjsaogjos i don't feel like typign that anymore im pissed

Wow, what? Cool meltdown.

Sooo, I am giving up fast-food as long as I can stand it and I am going to SUCCEED and not fail.

Yeah fuck this wishy-washy shit! You either succeed or you FAIL.

wow.. i have a major hot flsh and i don't know why lol haaa air..

What

Anyways, I didn't go to church yesterday and basically I was just tired of waking up so early every morning.. I didn't want to have an obligation for once.. my mom said that I will have to answer to God myself about not going to church.. I know I will..

Tell God to go fuck himself. It's your day off and you're going to sleep. SLEEP LIKE THE DEAD.

but hopefully he understands how tired I am.. and that I love him.. a lot.. it's just soo hard to try and juggle everything..hmpf..lame excuses I know.. but it is.. OHHH if it wasn't for Adam and Eve I wouldn't have to be explaining myself right now.. I will just live in peace and harmony.. but you know what how do we know that if Adam and Eve didn't eat the apples off the forbidden tree it could have been someone else.. and our lives will still be in peril and we would still sin.. I believe it was unavoidable..

I'm pretty sure the entire story is an allegory but all right sure I guess we're taking the stance that "the Bible literally happened as written and God created the Earth in 6 days 6000 years ago and rested on the seventh and it all happened regardless of contradictions".

Now there's a long post where she's butthurt about her best friend getting a boyfriend and then freely admits she ditched her friend for a boy in high school. Yes, it does, in fact, work both ways.
oh yeah he's a loser in my eyes..always wanted to hang out the little days that we did hang out..i mean "OH MY GOSH" what real man wants to hang out with his girlfriends bestfriend and her little sister...i mean come on...

I don't know if he isn't romantically involved with either it sounds rather noble to me to try and befriend his girlfriend's friends.
BUT WHAT DO I KNOW I'M NOT A JEALOUS CUNT.
Well, like the song "Radar Love" by Golden Earring, it's a half past four and I'm shiftin' gears.

AMAZING story time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love people who type like this. Oh wait, no, sorry, I meant: I LOOOOOOVE people who TYPE LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So today we have followchrist.livejournal.com (I think you can see where this is headed).

I'm not sure where to begin. Like with most of my entries or emails, I have spent the last few days THINKING.

THINKING about the DEGENERATIVE disease my FAMILY HAS wherein we CAN'T CONTROL THE VOLUME OF OUR VOICES!

People are asking and wondering why I am soo quiet. Some think I'm tired, others stressed.

I can't imagine having this conversation about anyone. Hey what's with the girl in the corner! She's so quiet!
Well I think she's tired.
Maybe she's stressed?
NO ONE TALKS LIKE THIS.

I don't always correct them to defend myself, because their assessment contains some truth. However the full truth is that my mind is on a raceway of thoughts, feelings, memories, and emotions.

Ah, I see. She's one of them "thoughty" girls!

Right now I'm thinking about marriage.

Oh great. Please, tell me more!

Though I am not forced to make a decision...I still sense the near options in front of me. There aren't really options in front of me...for me to decide. But there is a decision hanging in the balance. Good thing God is in control!! :)

Yeah, it's good of God to take all of the living out of living. We're all pieces in his great game, and we should be thankful for our place in it.

I feel amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!

I feel like twirling and laughing and giggling and being beautiful and then maybe falling on my butt. Ahhhh i love being me.

:3 sure is a self-indulgent moment I'm witnessing.

I've been driving around listening to country music

I'm sorry. Is your radio broken?

Whcih causes me to be the bubbly overflowing person I am.

I call that "annoying" but I guess bubbly works.

I love dancing (when I shrink back its cus I think others can dance better and I don't want to look like a fool, but i L O V E to dance.), twirling around in circles in a pretty dress.

The devil commands ye to dance, loathsome harlot!
You're dancing and twirling that dress STRAIGHT TO HELL!

I love loving people.

Wow this is such an alien emotion to me I can't even imagine. Love loving? Really? Is there a reason for this manic approach to life?

Little does the world know that on the inside all hell has broken lose. Room of pain to be cleansed.

Pain cleanses or something.
Also in a world where everyone is spelling "lose" (as in, "I lose because I'm reading this blog") as "loose" it's nice to see someone can screw it up backwards.

But the progress (praise God it aint digression)

:|

And its this more that causes me to be both bitter and numb. Bitter at myself for the state of my heart. I'm not in love with Jesus, my Bridegroom, enough.

What is this I don't even

The depth in the statement that God L O N G S to know me...all of me...and invites me to do the same to Him astounds me.

Wow I had no idea Jesus was such a playa (spelled with an a because I'm familiar with street lingo like that). I wonder what that says for all the male Christfags, huh? (Gay, as I always suspected).
Also does anyone see double (even triple) entendre in "L O N G"?

I remember this past Jan being at IHOP for the One Thing conference and having a heart-to-heart with My Love.

As all important spiritual revelations occur at IHOP (I don't know what people did before IHOP to be honest), I'll allow you to continue.

I told the Lord, my Lover and Friend, that when His eyes searched His body to find a resting place, a place to confide, a place to exhale, a friend to enjoy laughter with, a place for advice, a place to vent, and someone to love Him I wanted Him to find me.

If I were Jesus I'd be really uncomfortable right now.

I read this verse in Isaiah earlier this morning and I had a moment with God, where I just smiled at Him with my "Really?" smile. He knows all my smiles and everything I'm thinking.

Goddamn you're a douche. I hope God tells you this on a regular basis.

But anyways,

ffffffffffffffffffffffffff

After waxing the boards

;)

And let me just say, I screamed a lot!

;)

I have so much to say. I have this box

;)
goddamn double entendre Monday in blog "Miss Em"

For years I was always the girl who loved God and knew alot about the Bible...

Not "alot" about grammar, apparently.

more than most people my age.

Not enough about the Bible to stay humble either, apparently.

I don't like when other people tell me what I am thinking!!! You are not in my head, so don't try and ask like it.

Yeah you're such a riddle it'd be impossible to know what you're thinking.

This is an extremely constant thing in my life. Meaning I have thought this for years...like 8 years.

Yeah eight years is a really fucking long time, kid.

There are times throughout these past few weeks that I have felt like my body was literally going to explode from thr pressure inside my heart

She tried to master the secrets of Hokuto Shinken by herself and it backfired. You will have no need for your Bible now, because you are already dead.

for Africa.

Oh, oh. I see.

I know that sounds absolutely ridiculous, but I am being honest. I am praying for God to make a way for me to go....not only because I want to go, but because I know He wants me to go. He has given me a desire for loving on some African folk.

Wow God really does have a plan. YOU, CREEPY, SELF-CENTERED WHITE GIRL! GO GIVE LOVE TO AFRICA! That's what they need, too, I might add: love. Not, you know, medicine or food or a solid infrastructure. Love conquers all, even AIDS and malaria.
Also I like how she makes love sound like it's something done to you. YOU'RE GETTING LOVED, AFRICA, WHETHER YOU WANT TO OR NOT!

So I have this weird talent of finding things. really I do. It is something God has just given me...weird...I know. For example, when I was about 10 or 11, my mom lost her keys. It is a common thing to do. I found them...in the FREEZER. (Ask her if you don't believe me.) Who looks in the freezer for keys?

Uh-oh. Time for the Inquisition to make a foray to... Cunt here's house and purge some psychic talent.

He has a new CD out and well I am extremely in to it. And by that I mean, its pretty AMAZING! Definitely worth 12 or so bucks for the thing. Its entitled "Burn For You" and please go buy it, order it, listen to it. So so soooo good!

BRB Blue Oyster Cult

Like I can't spell,

You sure fucking cannot.

What is Christianity nowadays? Is it really what Jesus would want it?

Bullshit and no.
Wow somehow I stumbled through 3 years of entries. Well bravo, Followchrist. Keep this small instead of making a Livejournal and then making five million entries.
No accolades, however, for being a boring, stupid cunt. I have an awesome brotip for you, and I think it'll make you a better person all the way around: read a book not related to the Bible, go see a movie, watch some TV. Experience some new shit.
Goddamn.