GREAT

Oh boy bitches whining.

What cutting edge entertainment.

"Well I don't have anything against gay people - "
"Oh, that's good - "
"I mean, some of them are just born that way and can't help it, you have to feel bad for them. Others of them are just hedonists."
"...huh - "
"I don't like bisexual people, though. Bisexuals are dirty."

Nope don't care.
Anyway TERA literally is the best game ever I found out after I switched servers and made a new character.

vent vent vent right anyway so

vacation week off work! yaaay

What other game lets you make a loli waifu who rides a lion?

Forgive the shitty screenshot I didn't feel like grappling with the camera and waiting for both parties to not have their eyes closed.
TERA has a very 3rd person shooter camera.
Open PVP sure is fun with Edie, too.
300 pound snake men want to rape her?
SHOULD HAVE RUN
WHEN THEY HAD THE CHANCE.
Also I picked mystic because I just can't stay away from the shitty support roles.
What's wrong with me?
Oh that's right she shoots fire out of her hands and has a move called teleporting jaunt that instantly warps her halfway across the fucking planet. No one can lock on.

then my godworshipping cousin and aunt from hong kong arrive! suddenly. with precisely one day of warning beforehand, thanks mom. I'm expected to entertain, so I do, and supposedly they are just staying here the one night then leaving. ok. I can do this. even though i really dislike them both - there is some odd backstory here,

I'm sure I care about this.

my cousin used to be a sleazy asshole attention whore that i disliked utterly then she FOUND GOD and became a stepford wife who tries to convert people and now she creeps me out hard but at least it's just one day and they're gon -

No I was kidding.

and jesus fuck don't start with 'impolite,' if I were in HK and my plans to stay with a friend fell out ID GO TO A HOTEL or something not to a relative's house where there ARE OTHER PEOPLE (unless I absolutely had to, and REMEMBER THESE PEOPLE ARE MILLIONAIRES.) because goddammit its not just 'sleep in a bed' when its family, you are OBLIGATING THEM TO ENTERTAIN YOU to be polite according to asian rules anyway and you KNOW it, even asking to stay is obligation-forming and being impolite. how the hell is it polite to invite people over without warning the other people who already live with you anyway? how the hell is it polite to force us to entertain them?

Them America Born Chinese girls, man.
Nope.

went to the dmv today

took a couple of hours to renew my license

an old guy died waiting in line

literally

just kind of keeled over waiting to get a new license for the next 4 years he didn't have

Jesus Christ what an awful thought.
-- Going to the DMV, that is.

can feel myself detaching from life again, goddamn

i hate when this happens, all the vague emotiony things kind of just go away and it sucks. it'd be easier if i were actually sad, this is more like being "meh" and uninterested in everything and bored and restless and pacing around in mental circles

i just want except i don't know what or where or how, and inb4 so ronery/forever alone because it's not another PERSON or even companionship or anything, it's - inspiration. or an idea. or an interest, or something to pour my mind into, something to care about that isn't frustrating and stupid and depressing to think about, something

Can someone please record themselves reading this because I can't bring myself to focus long enough to read this.
Just go to Vocaroo.com and record it please.

restless forever, can't sleep for more than two hours at a time because my mind is working too hard, i just lie there and think and can't remember what i was thinking about when i give up and get up. not sleeping makes it just get worse, i have all this vague nervous energy and i don't know what to do with it but i'm tired all the time, i'm burning myself up and haven't eaten properly in a week but there's no appetite or interest there, i just don't care

times when i need to be making something creating something working on something but i don't know what

come on, life, give something i can feel more than shallow and distant about

Blah blah blah existential whining blah blah why me blah blah bitching about parents
You're my age for Christ's sake. Shouldn't you have a job or something you can be moaning about?

Is a paid professional killer better, worse, or exactly the same, to you, as a murderer/serial killer who kills for personal reasons? 

Both are exactly the same.
What kind of question is this?

How about a paid professional torturer/abuser/etc etc vs someone who does it for personal reasons (or at least, not as a profession)?

A paid professional who doesn't do this as a profession-- what?
So like revenge?
Depends on the reason for revenge but I'd say generally that's better.

Obviously neither are GOOD PEOPLE but is one worse than the other?

I never root for a character more than when the driving goal is justified vengeance.
See: The Count of Monte Cristo.

1) the basic: you have to kill 1 innocent person (they would not have died without your interference) to save 5 innocent people, or let 5 innocent people die (through inaction). what do you do?

No such thing as innocence.

Next question.
2) the less basic: you have to kill 4 innocent people (they would not have died without your interference) to save 5 innocent people, or let 5 innocent people die (through inaction). what do you do?

That's not less basic. The crux is whether murdering to save lives is morally agreeable so ultimately the number of people saved versus killed shouldn't matter as long as the net gain is positive.

Really we're just arguing whether utilitarianism is moral or not.

3) the even less basic: you have to kill 1 person you love (they would not have died without your interference) to save 5 innocent people, or let 5 innocent people die (through inaction). what do you do? 

Let 5 innocent people die.
Are you even trying to give me a moral dilemma here?

4) if you answered kill the person you love for question #3, what if it's 2 people you love? 3? 4?

I didn't, so next fucking question.

5) who do you respect more, the person who sacrifices their loved one to save random strangers, or the person who sacrifices random strangers to save their loved ones? how would you rather have your own loved ones act, if it were YOU in danger? how would you rather have your own loved ones act, if it were THEM in danger? 

The person who sacrifices random strangers, of course. Why do I have to respect idiots with martyr complexes, especially when they're martyring others?

6) who do you respect more, the person who actively makes a choice or the person who lets time run out/things take their course/whatever without actively making a decision to do nothing? (does it depend on the choice they make?)

Considering the basis of all great cultural heroes in the entire world is they're men of action who take their destinies into their own hands (however futile the attempt may be) I think we can all agree people who make choices are far more respected and respectable than people who just sit back and wait.
I mean rationally if something good happens to you just by chance that doesn't really show a triumph of strength or moral integrity or wit or whatever.

Assume there's no legal interference or any like, GOING TO JAIL FOR MURDER even though you did it to save people etc etc this is just a question of morals

Question of morals for fucking 6 year olds.
The only part of this that approaches a moral dilemma is the first part when everyone involved was strangers but you removed all possible dimensions of morality from that when you said they were innocent.
So, yes, saving 5 Mother Theresas is better than saving only 1.
Now if the question is, say, do you save 1 known upstanding, tax paying father of 3 or do you save a bus full of kids who are effectively untested in life (one could be the next Hitler, who knows?) you might have more of a debate on your hands.
And the rest of this crap is copied IM conversations she had with other people.
What kind of monstrous egotist do you have to be to think anyone would want to read this?
YES YOUR BORING IMs THIS IS TOTALLY A SUBSTITUTE FOR CONTENT.