Very nearly very nice

I had another entry almost completely done but I keep losing interest in it and it has been like this off and on for about seven hours. If I were an average idiot blogger I'd post it, but I think my inability to finish it is my brain telling me something about it, so I'll just keep it to myself.
SEE, IS THAT SO FUCKING HARD, OTHER PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET?
Speaking of people with no content filter: "yr nasty"
It's basically what you'd expect.

I wish the thought of having sex with someone didn't make me want to puke.

Which is oddly appropriate because I'm fairly certain no one can think of having sex with you without wanting to puke, so the feeling is mutual.

I also wish I didn't want to kiss this boy so much. Don't you just ever want to kiss someone with every fiber of your being.

No I can't say that I do.

Kiss someone for so long it seems like days, till both of our lips are chapped. With someone who doesn't try to stick his hands in my pants.

Oh well now I definitely know the answer to that question is no.

Do straight up make out sessions even happen anymore? Or am I the only one who longs for kissing the way most people want sex? Sex is dumb and uncomfortable and I'm pretty sure I wont change my mind until it's with the perfect guy.

I've taken up sketching while I do these updates. I figure it's more constructive than playing Pokemon or FFXI, because for some reason "Edie Finds a Corpse" time tends to turn into "FFXI time".
I guess I could just power through it but quite frankly even my superhuman metabolism couldn't handle that much raw bullshit.

I'm really not a fan of casual dating. I don't think it's meant for the socially akward. Any time I've ever been on a date I end up talking about how awesome my grandmother is or how much time I spend with my dogs and the funny names I give them. I never seem to be able to make it to the second date.

So winning personality so far, I wonder why she can't get a date?

On a different note, I'm doing a detox. I've always been overweight but I'm getting rediculously fat.

Oh, what's up, complete package?

god damnit i am so stupid.
i am not in love with every boy i see why is my brain telling me that.

I HAVE A GAT DAMN CRUSH ON EVERYONE WHO TALKS TO ME.

Must be tough having such-- I'm pretty good at this sketching thing, actually.
I don't know what your problem is, Deviantardlets.

FIRST THINGS FIRST
I'm dressing as beyonce for holloween.

That's appropriate because Beyonce does have a fat ass.
Although I suspect you're just fat.
Also Beyonce is a model. I'm sure you're nowhere close to model material.
So...
Not really sure what my point was, come to think of it.

onto more sexy things.

sexier things than a fat girl in skimpy clothing?

two boys with the same name want to date me.
BUT, I have a crush on a blonde boy. Which is wierd because I normally am not attracted to blondes.

Sounds like a zany sitcom if I've ever heard one!

I really am acting like such a fucking chick lately. It's lame but it's also kind of fun.
boysboysboysboysboysboysboysboysboys
BOYS.
I want to go dress shopping, I need more dresses.
Something to accentuate my flawless rack.

Oh that's not the picture I wanted. Actually it can stay because it's the most awesome thing to come from this entry today, I suspect.

I miss having a libido.....

Miss having libido? By my advanced statistical analysis, five out of six (or 83.333333333333333333333333333333333repeating percent) of your posts are directly related to sexual activities.

sometimes i just really wanna kiss boys.

This summer has been life changing, just not in the way I wanted it to be.
I feel like I've gone against everything I believe in like I'm somehow less of a person.
I recently (actually a month ago to this day) had sex for the first time.

sugoi monogatari, aneki.
(translator's note: "sugoi monogatari, aneki" means "cool story, sis" in Japanese)
Christ it's 20 entries later and this bitch still isn't done eating cock (and Twinkies)

i read all your discustingly disgustingly bittersweet romantic blogs and i I pretend that i'm I'm the girl your you're writing about.

....
lol

Glad to be of service.

when i get to england im going to be a kareoke bar godess.

I was going to correct you on "karaoke" but you're barely literate in English, so forget it.

tonight im going to drink coolers and be girly as fuck.
i found a boy who will listen to bad 90's music with me.
we're going to get married.

Hey listening to bad music is one of my major hobbies.
No way I'd do it with you, though. I only listen to bad music with people who have character.
Sorry~
And there's a picture of you.
Good grief are you obese. I'm going to be especially generous and even pretend the camera adds 20 pounds.
You weren't kidding earlier. There's no way you can brush this off as "I gained a little weight I need to lose it~ <3". You didn't just gain that weight. It has been a project between you and Chester Cheetah for a while.
Ugh that's it. I'm so bored with her nonsense now my eyes are getting all blurry from the yawning.

Basically perfect, so hit me with your best shot

So it took a little more than two steps (three steps) and a lot longer than expected (it took me an embarrassingly long time to realize any NPC movement in the zone, regardless of whether or not they were visible on screen fucked the whole process up) but I did it. Perfect IV Mismagius.
Whether or not this is an ideal arrangement is academic, really. She misses out on hidden power fighting (and therefore has imperfect coverage), but gains a perfect speed IV and therefore outspeeds both Honchkrow and other Mismagiuses (Mismagii?) so I'm okay with this.
I have also not been neglecting FFXI, and am now level 51 and have to level both ninja (:C) and dragoon now (:c).
If you can outdo this you are a LYING CUNT, so let's dig right in.

Dressing up and wearing new clothes makes me feel pretty and good about myself (I think I want to get another haircut for even shorter hair).

hurr hurr

Even though after early release school today the guys and I didn't do anything, I got a ride home and right now pumping some music still feeling so good!

Oh my God what is this song? It's-- it's horrific. They took all the shitty music of a shitty music year and blended it into one thing. Holy shit, it's like a universal still point of shitty music! It's like every point of time existed solely to come to this moment.
This must be what the Bible as banging on about in the Book of Revelation with the Trumpets of Jericho and the four horsemen and shit.
Quick, someone call the Vatican. I'm wrong about everything, and I've found the Antichrist.

I am going to channel all my energy to making myself feel good despite what has happened, and focus hard on homework.

Despite THE END TIMES I'm going to try hard to focus on homework.
Now we come to my favorite part of blogtime: shitty poetry.
There's a lot and I'm not going through all this, so I'm going to pick out a couple based solely on the accompanied "current mood" tag.
Here our sweet Juliet (her name is Julie, roll with me on this, all right) is "rejected" so let's see.
Presumably the title is actually the first line of the poem, otherwise it would start with "but", and that's not proper grammar.
Not that it would stop anyone, but whatever, let's just assume.

It's over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song...

Wow that was... Wow. I hear tell there's this thing in writing called, what was it, "imagery"? Yeah, something about describing images or something.
You know that song by Duran Duran, Hungry Like The Wolf?
No of course you don't. Well look it up, and that's kind of what imagery is like. See, he's in touch with the ground and shit? Yeah, that sets the mood. It also employs something called an "extended metaphor". Specifically, in this case, a simile. You remember that shit, don't you? Comparison using "like" or "as"?
See, he's not actually a wolf, but he's like one, and that helps build the image and the tension of the story--
Well whatever.
Oh great now she's quoting from that song by that bitch, what's her face, Kesha (not spelling that with a dollar sign get fucked). Which reminds me of another thing I abhor: the song "Tik Tok" by Kesha.
Oh and there's her picture.
Yeah she's a cute girl. I'm not sure what her fucking problem is otherwise, but she's cute.
Now here's another poem, called "Hope Like an Ocean" which I don't know how I can "hope like an ocean" or if an ocean can even hope, but let's find out.

Well I rise and fall I hit the ground,
I just don’t know where to turn,
But the good lord he told me that,
Some day you’ve got to learn
That hope like the ocean will return with tide,
Don’t get lost in the moment,
You gotta see that there’s more to life

So-- hope, like an ocean, is something? Is that the comparison we're going with here?

Don’t be so pessimistic
Not a reason in the world to complain
Don’t waste a moment
Feel the sunlight shine on your face
You’ve gotta be optimistic
See the world from a different view
Don’t waste a minute
This life might escape from you

Wow, that's deep. Don't be pessimistic, be optimistic! You know when you describe two interchangeable states of mind it doesn't really make sense, right? You could have just as easily said "don't be happy, be angry!" or "don't be fatalistic, be nihilistic!"

Recently, I started talking to myself in the mirror >___>. It seems like lately I have to lie quite a lot. I feel terrible but I was told to, in order to deceive a family member for their own good.

Lie constantly. There's never a good reason to tell the truth.

There's a FORK in my UTERUS. Twisting. Aching. OW.

Wow.
I have a pen knife in my testicle right now.
Don't see me complaining, do you?

*Fork in uterus is metaphorically describing how I feel right now.

Oh.
OH WELL FUCK YOU. You do know what a metaphor is, so what the fuck is with you poetry?
Goddamn, people.
Now there's one of those meme things where she posts a ton of personal information-- yeah I think we're going to skip that, Christ. Make it easy for a stalker, why don't you?

I dealed to 8-14 people for Texas Hold'em. It was fun, but also very stressful as I had to start making lots of sidepots for when people did all-in.

Texas Hold'em, like all things Texas, is really just a facade of something invented by other, superior cultures.
Also cool grammar on "dealed". What are you, five?
Now here's her Halloween costume and she went as Ash Ketchum from Pokemon.
Yeah I don't know what that's about, but we can trade Pokemon, if you'd like.
I'm not using creepy double entendre, either. I need a Tyranitar :(
Besides, the bitches are so turned on by my Pokemon skills I don't need double entendre.
Also: girl dressing up as a boy. Very Freudian.
Well my darlings I think that's all for today. You're pretty boring, Julie. I suggest livening up some, or having some interesting thoughts or personality traits or something.
I've seen more character from my Pokemon, do ho.

Ah Nostalgia~

Remember back to the dim dark age of summer 2008? Remember all those anorexia blogs?
Hell yeah, you do.
Well let's revisit fond memories~
To be perfectly honest I don't really remember too much about those, but from what I recall this one seems more mean spirited than the previous ones. Look at that fucking logo. OH YEAH, HAVEN'T EATEN IN THREE DAYS, HAVE YOU? WELL LOOK, SOME DELICIOUS ICE CREAM. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO EAT ALL OF IT, YOU FATFUCK.
Or maybe that's just me reading too far into it.
I'm not really sure what I mean by "reading too far into it" because no one can over think themselves more than these bitches, so no, I didn't put too much thought into it, at least not compared to them.

I’m such a loser. Today was supposed to be fasting day 5, but I caved and ate. I ate soo much I shocked everyone in the restaurant. To make matters worse, I’m not 139lbs like I was this morning. I’m a whopping 143.5.

What.
Also:
>anorexic
>weighs more than I do
Uhhh...

I’ll do a hard workout until I wanna pass out. I hate myself. Everytime I get control and start doing good, I always screw up. YOU SUCK CARRIE!

Maybe it's because I'm an OCD nerd but I actually have thoughts not revolving around me. Admittedly they are usually towards something in my little world, but still, they are not *directly* about me. In fact, today most of my thoughts were "holy shit my perfect IV Azelf is so fucking awesome holy shit he has 252 special attack and speed EVs this guy is going to be a motherfucker when I get him to 100". Just working on flamethrower so I can torch any potential Metagrosses.
Oh right, this.

I weighed in. 147.5 at the end of the day. I haven't really gone to the bathroom in a while if you know what I mean lol.

youlostme.jpg

But that's no excuse. I was 138. Fuck.
Definately restricting til I get back down. I'm a fuckin whale.
I jus got an itouch so I'll be able to check as much as I want which I am super excited about : )

Most people would be happy about, you know, having an iPod Touch, but I guess being able to obsessively check your weight is something. I guess.

147.5.
Unbelievable.
I'm glad I'm in florida with warm weather but I don't really fit into my shorts!!! Help!

Again, someone who weighs more than me. Are we, as a society, so morbidly obese any weight loss is immediately branded "anorexic"? I've seen the tendency, to be honest.

i hope the hoildays are going as well as they are going for me.

Way to avoid the pronoun "you" in that sentence. I suppose it wouldn't truly be an anorexic group if it wasn't 100% about the poster.

My dad has decide to cut back on the juck food this year because he wants to lose weight.

Doesn't "juck" sound like some kind of racial epithet? Fucking jucks moving into my goddamn neighborhood and driving the real estate down. They also smell bad.

Oh hi.

purged once today:\ I was rly high and had insaane munchies so I binged.

Sugoi monogatari, aniki. (translator's note: "sugoi mongatari, aniki" means "cool story, bro" in Japanese)

blaa recovery is annoying at times like this. It's weird because I'm more happy when I allow myself to purge, not like once a day though more like what I was doing the past year. 5-8 times a day.

What.
Is vomiting 5-8 times a day for a year bad for the heart? Seems like it might be, I don't know. At the very least, it doesn't seem advisable.

I know I need to stop though. I'm just always stressed out now because the only way i know to relieve stress is purging. fuckit.

Bitch: get a DS. Now.
On second thought, don't. I'd just obliterate your shitty team with my perfect IV Azelf and then you'd stick a dick down your throat and puke or however that works.

I've been b/ping like a mad person, and my scale got moved when my mom was cleaning, so I've no clue where I am from the 121 that I got down to (Lost two pounds, yay.)

b/ping? Oh, binging and purging.
I get it.
Ewww.

So today I didnt even weigh myself today- i really dont think i can. I binged last night and couldnt even purge. I ate a mozzarella stick,a recess cup and a tiny piece of bagel

ONE ENTIRE MOZZARELLA STICK FUCK ME

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve !

Is it?
Oh shit, it is. Huh.

i wish plastic surgery was cheap. i would have so many :( even though ppl say am pretty i rlly cant help but see my big nose, ugly teeth, huge muffin tops etc etc ...

Sounds like you're ugly. I hate to draw yet another comparison to Audrey Hepburn, so I won't.
No, instead let's make a comparison to her:

You can vomit your central nervous system out and you will never look like that. Give up.
Man I'd make an awesome anorexia counselor. I'd alternate between this brilliant tactic and saying "YOUR (sic) SO SKINNY U NEED TO EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!" followed by "WHOA SLOW DOWN ON THE CUPCAKES, FATTY!"
Anorexics need a constantly conflicting body image, right? Isn't that the problem?

i am rlly considering surgery i just want to feel better!! am sick of everything..and everyone! the more i cant stand myself, the more i cant stand people around me.

You know some people with that attitude become Batman or Kenshiro or something. Just saying.
Or no, I know who sounds exactly like that: Black Jack. Eccentric and brilliant surgeon without a license who performs all sorts of illegal but miraculous surgeries on those without a chance.
He has like half a zombie face or some shit.
Basically imagine House but 5000x more hardcore.
Remember all those episodes where House was being an emo fuck about his leg or whatever?
Black Jack was boxing people.

Two members have made fun and being ironic of ana mia's members.

Someone also posted a pic of chocolates in one of my post.

WHY?
why are u so stupid bithces.....??!!ok u made ur point u say "styupid anorexic bitches askin for advice....bla bla bla " well i have on word to say to you

The fucking title image is ice cream. There's pictures of food all over the fucking place, so let's not go crazy, all right.

Also I'm enjoying some delicious Oreos at the moment.
Cause I rele want to be strong, but I'm a bit scared of passing out,
electoytle imbalance and death.....

>rele
>she means 'really'

Well, on another note: it's christmas tomorow. Excited. :)

>posted December 23rd
soooooooo I think that's it.
I mean there's more, of course, but there's only so much one person can say about all this.
I even recycled the "constantly conflicting body image" joke (shouldn't have said anything no one would have noticed~)

:3c

I find today's blog a lot of fun to say aloud: Kaizokukingvj.
Keye-zoh-koo-kingcuhvvvvvg.
Just rolls right off the tongue.

Maybe I'm just being paranoid, maybe its cause this is what I feared.

I fell for her, I knew I shouldn't have.

Whatever, shit we've all heard before. The only reason I quote this, and indeed the only reason anyone might care is because soon we will be playing "guess the gender" and I feel this is an important entry into answering (or confusing, as is the case) the question.

I just...I have alot of things worrying me I guess.

Like will I pass any of my damn classes? was all that effort worth nothing? It doesn't help that I just found out theirs a new law in place that will extend the age of free insurance to non students from 18 to 26. SO FUCK ME RIGHT?

!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!??!!??!?! Not really sure why I quoted this, come to think of it.

Oh yeah and how about the constant worry that I might fuck up just enough that my dearest mother will finally just tell me to pack up my shit and get out? thats not concerning at all. Noooo.

Ughhh side note, Adam's breath smells like utter shit ( I'm stuck in a bed next to him draining the last remaining power on my laptop cause I can't turn on the light to find a plug) he just turned his head to me in his sleep and is breathing heavily, the stink pouring out my way (UGGGHHH BRUSH YOUR TEETH YOUR FUCKING DISGUSTING)

That's charming.
I guess this is a guy and that's his brother?

Like I sat in this bed for an hour and thought " what if I will never be able to get my license? What if my sensory integration disorder holds me back at that too?

YER WOT?
Whoa that somehow turned me into an Ork. That's pretty douchey, bro.
Let's consult Wikipedia:

Sensory integration dysfunction is a term used to describe difficulty with sensory integration.[citation needed]

Great so that's cleared that one right up.

and fuck if I can't get my license how am I supposed to get a job?

Asshole: bus schedule.

and then there is this the impossible situation with the girl I like. Shes wonderful and damn near everything I have been looking for and heck the girl even likes me back too. Sounds great right? we can talk for hours and hours and all she does is make me smile profusely I can't get her out of my head.

Asshole: sitting outside of the girl's lavatory masturbating furiously when she steps out of the shower does not, in civilized society, equal a conversation.
Believe me, I have the restraining orders to prove it.
Also: what the fuck is the goddamn problem? She "like likes" you, and you "like like" her, so what the shit?

But par the usual course she lives 8 hours a way and if I want to go into slightly more privy details has a boyfriend ( at least as far as I know at this moment) she usually makes a point to talk to me as much as pos

Shut up, listen to me. Bitch is playing you. Or, she won't break up with her boyfriend because you're a "nice guy" and he's more the "asshole she'll stay with" type, which frankly dude, you're pretty much a goddamn pussy so that seems the most likely case.
You can either man the fuck up and steal her out from under that asshole or move on. Shit or get off the pot, as they say.

and she has been having problems with her boyfriend ( who even worse I know and respect, but ack you can't help who you fall for right?) but right now she is probably still with him and who knows maybe they worked things out, in one sense I'll be happy.

Can I call this shit or what?
You're probably the type who then goes on to internet forums I peruse bitching about how you're "so lonely" when we're ostensibly talking about video games.
Also: the cute girl at Gamestop is hired specifically for the reason to sell video games to cave-dwelling ogres such as yourself, so no, she isn't really hitting on you. Dope.

I hate this situation hate might be too strong I'm just frustated. I like a girl who is having boyfriend troubles, she likes me, alot it seems.

Honest to God. "Talk to me when you get a fucking clue" would be my response.
There's, what, nine billion people on the planet and 4.5 billion are women? Just saying, dude. You could probably find someone else.

I have known for quite sometime that my happiness is going to be hard to achieve, I want fame and recognition for creativity

its something you need luck to get.

Also you need, you know, talent.

I wrote one story not to long ago, that quite alot of people liked, I'd like to flush that out a bit.

Flesh*, although "flush" is probably accurate to what should really happen.
Now there's a post about how he "envies Team Rocket" from Pokemon, and after sitting here for about five minutes searching the deep recesses of my brain for something witty to say, then consulting my (now diminished) reaction image folder, I don't really have anything to say about it.
So moving on--
Now there's some more bullshit where he "feels used" and here's a drawing he did which, bro, if that's your talent, good luck getting acknowledgment for it. I doodle better shit when I'm bored.
I'm not even trying to be all pro, either. I fucking suck at drawing.

I'm all talk aren't I? I'm supposed to be strong. People look up to me don't they?

No.
No to the last part, that is. I don't know what you mean by "I'm all talk" because your "talk" basically amounts to "I'm a goddamn pussy" and yeah, you are that, so-- no, I guess you aren't all talk. So, "no" to both parts, then.

I want to be held.

Ugh, this doesn't end, does it?

I feel like emotionally I'm trapped in a gray room, rocking back and forth in the fetal position crying out for salvation, waiting ever so patiently for the cavalry to arrive and remove me from my colorless prison to colorful freedom.

Blanket statement to all blogs, incidentally.

I'm reminded of Persona 3's nod to Revelations in the description of the hospital I'm in it seems like no one is here but my attendant her names cindy but I will call her Maya.

Okay whoa, whoa. Let's take this easy.
Okay obviously he means "Revelations: Persona" the first Persona game, and not-- the Bible.
Is there a hospital in Persona 3? I know the main character winds up there at the start and he returns later to visit-- all right, there's no getting around it. I fucking love SMT. I'm an SMT expert, and even this is way over my head.

Waiting for Maya to come back take my lunch order and put me to sleep.

Maya was the reporter from Persona 2 though, wasn't she? I don't really--

Of feeling like I am not good enough for anyone. Like seriously do I have to get fucking lipo suction to be accepted by a girl?

Ah yes, the ever-separating asshole that is the live triangle between being a cave troll forever and your desire for human contact.

So tomorrow I'm going to a party filled with models. Amy says shes going to try to set me up with one too lol.

Models, known for their depth of character, will assuredly be attracted to our fat friend here, our fat friend who can't drive, doesn't have a job and can't stop whining.
All right this is starting to give me a goddamn headache. I've experienced similar whining from girls but at least that had the added bonus of breasts, but this-- this.

Gib Ochimusha Kote

I didn't get a chance to kill Mee Deggi yesterday because some tool factory took it out from under me by about half a second. That's only cool when I do it, man.
I think it might be time to start saving for Ochiudo's Kote instead. Same bonus, it just costs 500,000 more. Of course, at some point the time investment on the free one outweighs the 500k because opportunity costs (the hidden factor everyone forgets) but the question remains: CAN I BE THE BEST AROUND BY JUST QUITTING LIKE THIS?
It's a moral quandary I'll spend some time on. Biggest issue of our time, etc.
A true knight sets his mind on a goal and doesn't stop until it is completed, but I question whether completing it by a different method truly counts as stopping.
So our friend here is some kind of anarchist or something. He's a real pussy, though, so don't get excited.

Adeptus Lupercal

Once again I've had to deal with the fallacy of leaders.

Don't really know what that opening is about but it sounds like something from Warhammer, so aptus semper lucius, brother, just in case.

Someone gets it in their head they own the chuffing college and start harrassing us. Its pointless, despite the past, we don't want anything to do with her. She however seems to think everything we do revolves around getting her in some sense of the word. Its frustrating.

>doing things
>on campus
go to class, shut up.
Also likely someone does own the campus. I know it's a bit above the reckoning of your stupid caveman brain, but it is possible to own something.

All I want is a cottage, enough land, tools and water to grow my own food and a sodding huge black and red flag outside my door. I can't have any of this because I'm not 'rich' enough, which means I have to work and which means I have to attend college and everything else mandated by society to make me a good little worker.

Man, societal requirements are hard!

Once in these systems I can't even persue my own beliefs because small minded petty 'leaders' consider it a personal issue if we debate ethics and use non-authoritarian frameworks. Bleh.

So as I understand it there's this totally awesome thing called the internet where you can get into as many arguments as you like, and more importantly the people (like me!) just trying to keep their head down and go to class won't be bothered.

Let the idiots follow and the monsters lead, I just want to live.

Yeah well good luck with that, pusscakes.

Mtv was running one of those stupid 'how would you deal with this' army adverts about a night club. It was actually made by them and the MOD and its on the MTV website.

How fucking dare they! Lets con a bunch of stupid teens who are disenfranchised and agressive into signing their lives away and fucking up their future.

I'm sorry, what, was every other channel on your TV out? Was the "channel up" button broken? Why the fuck were you watching MTV unless you had to for some unspeakable reason?

And when you ain't got no legs, or you loose a hand or have horrible scars, think anyones gonna want you in their nightclub?

Society will take your youth and toss you aside once you are used up.

If you're the alternative I think I'll take the Knights Templar and their FATHER OOF OONDURSTAHNDEENG any time.

How can MTV, who's main demographic is teens, advertise and collaborate with a group of proffesional killers to fuck their viewers heads and futures.

By "proffesional (sic) killers" he means the army.

I suppose my objection to rulers comes from the fact that there is NO opt out clause. I can't opt out of taxes or war or slavery or even the police.

I SUPPOSE MY OBJECTION TO YOU IS WHY ARE YOU SUCH A DOUCHE?

I guess utilitarianism kinda makes the law redundant, just act in a way that brings maximum happyness to maximum people. I guess I see anarchy as max happyness for everyone

Until someone decides to increase their "happyness" by tormenting you for giggles and there's no police to make your boo-boo all better.
I'm not saying anarchy would turn the world into The Road Warrior or something (as awesome as the idea of vigilantes like Kenshiro, say, wandering around would be) but people are basically assholes and it's probably best we have a code of laws that's not optional.
Sorry you have to wear a tie, bro, but I might suggest buying a PS-Triple and shutting up or something.

So people wouldn't murder one another because, a) murdering isnt that fun, b) morally, its wrong (usually) and c) its a lot of bad consequences, cos people wont be happy, you will be guilty and you might get murdered yourself.

OH IT'S MORALLY WRONG, IS IT? What's that noise? Is that the sound of contradiction I hear? How can I truly have no rules as anarchy dictates if I have to answer to a higher authority like morals? Also:
>implying morals come from outside human minds
>implying morals aren't relative

where did I sign up for this, where did I give permission to be governed and controlled

Man you're as bad as Christfags with this shit. You know there are more things to talk about?

Firstly, I'm a shameless hypocrit, I know it, you know it. Atleast I have the good grace to accept it.

Now onto what I have to say.
I missed greece, I missed london.
I wish I was there. I wish I was out there right now with my paste and my posters.
I wish I was better at this.

Bet it's not raining in Greece right now. Also it's probably really warm. Shit would be, as they say, so cash.

Its an idea and its an action and its a thousand other actions. The question you have to ask is 'Do I really agree with: police brutality, war, government bullshit, hierarchy, slavery and death?'

Do I agree with death? Deep, man. Deep.

And bollocks to your false science and guesses at psychology, dont tell me I couldnt do that.

>science
>false

Dont presuppose cultural is the be all and end all of morality, dont try to tell me that we must respect genocide and slavery because its 'just their custom'. Bollocks to moral relativism, I'm a moral absolutist, but the only rule I carry is that we all act in a manner which considers the affects of action on those around us and we consider each one of those as equal to ourselves (in other words, do what you like, so long as you dont put yourself ahead to the detriment of another)

So wouldn't that be--
What am I reading?

Morality is not a geographic quality, its unique to all of us, so bollocks to your theories on relativism, since in all, a genocidal culture is not a culture made up of advocates of genocide, just a government that does.

>Morality is unique to all of us
>I'm a moral absolutist
This is why I hate philosophy.

I feel like setting the world on fire right now,

brb Ink Spots

I just got reminded why Im here. Im lucky! My world is filled with luck! Ahh to be favoured by fortune, yet once more it is my fate to wont for more.

A new car, flat screen TV, new games.

And that one is youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~
No other will dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
I've lost all ambition
for worldly acclaim--
I just want to be the one you loooooove

Oh yeah, you.

THINK! I dont care what you're IQ is, tell me what you think of a gift economy, tell me why it wouldnt work and why your chosen flock would.

>you're IQ
>you are IQ

If you cant do that, you are fucking brain dead. I dont care how complex or simple your ideas are, tell me, explain and explain even more when I dont understand. DO NOT GIVE UP,

Try to be best
'Cause you're only a man
And a man's gotta learn to take it

Try to believe
Though the going gets rough
That you gotta hang tough to make it

History repeats itself
Try and you'll succeed

Never doubt that you're the one
And you can have your dreams!

You're the best around!
Man you're full of half-lyrics.

to quote so much contrived shite,

That's shiite, mang. You know, adverbial of 強いる？
Oh, right, no. English. You're a moron.
It means "to impose", incidentally. Kind of funny, in context~

ME, YOU, the GENERAL PUBLIC. I'm afraid of the police, because I know they're more likely to accost me than help me.

I'm white and upper middle class so I'm actually more likely to receive help than to be accosted, but you'll have to tell me what that's like sometime.

Anarchy isnt chaos, its the freedom for pressure, freedom from society. Unresticted life.

CHAOS. SCUM!
I'm sick if adverts for Wiis and IPhones. Sick of being told I can but this box set and this CD from amazon. Im sick of adverts trying to get me to spend spend spend.

I can't go anywhere without being hassled to buy, to waste money on shit I dont need and dont even want. Who gave these people the right to cluster up my skyline with billboards and annoy me while waiting for a bus.
Super cool brotip I'm about to give you. Fuck that iPhone, okay, but get a regular iPod. Then put this song on it.
You're the coolest motherfucker ever now.

I've been told to grow up. My maturity has been questioned. Boo hoo you might say, fuck that I say.

Im 16, and I'm planning for my future.

No, you're kidding!
Face it, kid, with this attitude you're never getting laid. You're all sound and no action. Bitches want a smooth motherfucker, not some yo-yo bitching about billboards.

Suicide isnt my thing, and really, I have a wicked sense of humor, and life is just so damn entertaining at times.

Yeah you sure do.
Jackass.
I haven't laughed at your blog once, and reading my own I laugh a ton. Face it, bro, you're not funny. Also: I'm awesome.
On that triumph of the human spirit I'm off to do something not migraine-inducing.

Enchahntment?

ENCHAHNTMENT!
Yeah I've been playing some Dragon Age: Origins lately, and there's this weird autistic Dwarf kid who can only say "enchantment" and, surprisingly, he enchants things. He's pretty bro tier.
Speaking of bro: today I noticed I had a follower. That's very flattering, especially since it doesn't appear to be anyone I know, so thanks for that.
Now I have strangers reading, time to drown site in popups.
Here we have a blast from the past. Anorexia blogs? Hell yeah, motherfucker. It's like revisiting a favorite game from years ago. Nostalgia~

god today has been terrible. jesus. i don't even have the energy to go through it right now it was so awful.

Yeah the weather fucking SUCKED today, which put me in a great mood. Traffic is so light and no one is on campus the second there's a single raindrop. Bitches weren't from old country where today would be considered beach weather.

my aunt is such a fucking bitch. she either ignored me or bitched at me all fucking day.

everyone says i'm such a spoiled brat and if i sit down for one second they make me feel like shit for it. i've been on my feet for eight hours straight. i guess the good thing is i've burned a bunch of calories.

So one thing that's really fucking awesome is the character creator in Dragon Age. At first I thought it was pretty light weight compared to shit I'm used to, but in actuality it's just really easy to use.
Also my new computer barely cracks 60c running it on ultra high, so I'm pretty pro at the moment.

i can't believe one day could be so fucking long.

good news is my books and new saosin cd came in from amazon so that perked my spirits up quite a bit. and i didn't eat anything but 6 cals worth of gum today until dinner (which was my goal).

Oh right, you.

so far today i've done okay eating wise. not great, but not binging by any means.

I'm having a little trouble with the scale, here. That'd be like me saying "I'm doing okay with this breathing thing. Not great, but I haven't suffocated on my own fluids yet." There's a pretty huge gap between "okay" and "vomiting" at least in my mind.

I am a Florist, but i want to go back to school for either Creative Writing or English or something like that. My dream would be to write fiction novels.

As opposed to nonfiction novels. Also: can't write fiction without a degree in it.

Woman I Admire:
Audrey Hepburn- She handled every situation with grace and care and she was the champion of many wonderful causes. I just love her grace and charm and beauty!

Too bad you didn't admire how much she wasn't a cunt. Oh well. I guess logically if you're graceful and charming you're also not a cunt-- err maybe? Can you be a cunt and still charming?

the family reunion was AWFUL.

first of all, my pretty, skinny cousin was there with her new boyfriend which made me feel inferior and stupid.

Good.
No I'm fucking serious. Good. You should feel inferior and stupid.
Yeah I had another quote here then I deleted it. Having some problems giving a shit, here.

last night i was real bad off. i cut myself alot. cut so much i can no longer see my stretch marks on my stomach. all i could think was, "My parents deserve a daughter so much better than me."

Cool.

did you know that 130 cups of tea will kill you?

Presumably all at once and not over the course of a lifetime. If it's the latter I know some English people who are in trouble.

i cut myself last night. not alot and it was only shallow cuts because my fear of getting caught way over powers my need to hurt myself.

Ha, ha, easy there, Linkin Park.

i will just never get it together. my mind is so fucked up, i'd probably have dropped out of college before the semester was over like the past 3 times i've tried to go to college. i am just a worthless sack of shit. honestly.

Three times? Wow, usually people give up or succeed before that. Well hey, if you need something good to say about yourself: you're persistent.
I'm not sure if that's a compliment, come to think of it.

i tried to commit suicide once, but i chickened out. it got me sent to this horrible mental hospital. i almost killed my parents by doing that. that's the only reason i'm not contemplating suicide again.

Uh-huh. So I have this awesome picture of this dog:
Check that fucker out. Dog wearing glasses. He thinks he's people! Dogs are funny.
Oh right, you.

i'm going to be this fat, fucking failure for the rest of my life.

i'm never going to publish a novel, never going to be pretty, never going to find that perfect guy, never going to have friends... hell, i'm never even going to go to fucking college.

Yeah join the fucking club. Well, I am pretty devilishly handsome, come to think of it. Also I have friends. Oh, and I'm pretty thin.
Oh and I do go to college.
Uhh-- so no, I guess it is just you. Sorry~
Hurray story time.

this is a little scene from a discontinued story of mine.

DISCONTINUED. Last story ever, folks, enjoy it while it lasts before they discontinue them~

Levi leans into me and I can smell the alcohol and smoke on his skin. I open my mouth to breathe it all in more fully, his scent sending lightning through my system.

He made some great jeans.

He covers my mouth with his own and slowly leans me back onto his bed.

I've read this line a lot in fiction (novels) and it never really conjured an image of kissing to me. I always imagine someone looking deadly serious and covering someone's mouth with their own, but everyone has a really serious straight face-- it's a stupid image.

I feel my chest opening up and letting him fill me, letting the guilt and fear and the wanting overtake my senses.

First part sounds like a serious medical problem, while the second part sounds like a serious psychological condition.
Also brotip: you can write about things not related to you.
Ha, ha, just kidding. You can't, but hypothetically, I mean.

His body is hot like a furnace, scorching me with his fingertips. His damaged hand brushes along my back, my stomach, down my bare legs, aggravating the angry red cuts that cover me. I feel the pain of it and I like it.

Okay I hope I'm not the only one who first read "angry red cuts" as "angry red cunts". I did a double take. Kind of gives it a new meaning.
So long story short something sexy is about to happen then he asks why she cuts herself and she gets really butthurt for no reason and pulls that bullshit 6 year old tactic of "now I'm really angry at you all day" like anyone would give a fuck (and she wouldn't forget the second something shiny entered her vision, or a loud noise or something).

It's about a girl named Mercy, who during the day is a nurse on the children's floor of a hospital and at night is a sadistic vigilante killing men who rape or molest women.

Wasn't that an episode of that old Full Metal Alchemist anime? Or was that Catwoman? Either way, been done before. Better, too.

i thought i saw a man in the house last night, but it was just the silhouette of a table.

Tables are crafty like that.

Matthew keeps begging me to come back. But honestly, i don't want to. I wish i had never gotten married. I wish i could go home, but i don't wish to see him again.

I asked him about the gay porn, he said that it still turns him on, but that he doesn't want that lifestyle.

Ha, ha, ha oh wow. Turned a guy gay. Good work, honey.
Can't top that. Ending on a victorious note~